Just suck it up

That's what I had to do when it came to last night's workout because I REALLY, REALLY didn't want to do it.

It had been a frustrating day and I just wanted to go to bed and sleep for the rest of the week. All day I felt drained. While some of that may have been due to the crazy workout the night before, it mostly was caused by the lack of sleep I had gotten. I was up all night worrying. You see, a month ago, I went in for an annual physical and all the fun things that come with that for women. A few weeks later, I received a call that I had an abnormal result from my PAP. It freaked me out to say the least. They referred me to Women's Health so that I could have a more thorough screening to find out what was going on. I spent last week playing phone tag with them to set up an appointment which was complicated by Furlough Friday which meant no one was there to answer the phones. Finally we connected Monday morning and set and appointment for Wednesday afternoon. That's why I didn't get much sleep.

Fortunately, the screening went well and they think it is either me recovering from a mild infection or some other minor thing. They took tissue samples for more testing and I will get the results in two weeks. It was a relief to hear these things but it doesn't change the fact that the procedure required was very invasive and uncomfortable. I came home after and just wanted to curl up and sleep. Taking tissue from those areas means you cramp and feel just plain cruddy for the rest of the day. I had a little pity party after dinner and ate some things I shouldn't have. When time for Insanity rolled around, I just didn't want to do it. I finally forced myself to get dressed to workout and then realized I was either going to have to do the warm-up on the video, which I hate, or go out for a run. I was lucky to be upright, I definitely wasn't going for a run. I got everything set up and pushed play.

The workout was tough and I had to modify a few things because I started getting a headache. I had to cut out some of the jumping because the stormy weather has my knee acting up and there was at least one exercise that I skipped all together. But I did it. I did the best I could with all of the exercises I did do. Skipping an exercise was a bigger deal last month but now that the workouts are 45 minutes long, skipping one or two 1 minute sets isn't going to kill me. It actually allows me to do some of the other moves better. Once I was done, I was glad I did it but making myself do it was not easy. After the workout, I even sat down and recorded everything I had eaten into MyFitnessPal, the good and the bad and my daily totals weren't pretty. At least I was honest.

I'm planning on sitting down and going through some recipes I have so that we can try to make a meal plan for next week. I think if we have a better idea of what we are going to eat each day and shop accordingly, it will be easier to get the food side back on track. All of the junk food is out of the house again and I am not planning on buying any more. I need to pick up some more fruit to snack on as well.

Yesterday was one of those days when it all really sucked but I'm not going to let one day get the best of me. I turned it around at the end by at least working out instead of giving in completely and wasting the entire day. Today I will do better.